I miss writing.

I miss writing so, so bad.

I can't find the time to continue, let alone complete Candlelight. I miss my characters, as absurd as that may sound.

For people who've been reading my blog consistently, or since last year; you've seen posts where I've flamed and ranted. You've seen posts that were vague in meaning (and questioned me about them too). I'm sure you didn't fail to realise how drastically my English has deteriorated since then.

It feels terrible. It feels terrible to be lost for words because your vocab bank seemed to have shrunk overnight. It feels demoralising to have to repeat a sentence in your head, because you're unsure if it was grammatically correct.

It feels revolting, to realise you've lost touch with the only thing you were truly good at.

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GUYS I'M SORRY FOR THIS POST. I AM EMOGIRL123. DON'T READ IF YOU DON'T WANNA I JUST NEED TO RANT SO IMA CONTINUE.

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I miss sec 4 days. Even as I thought the stress from O's was driving me insane, it was so much more comforting to know that I had Vel, Jav & Ken always there.

I still have them now, but they're all busy with their own lives, and I can't be so selfish as to let them concern with my mediocre problems.

Then and again, I'm not as strong as to handle them on my own.

Piano exams are next Monday.

I'm not in the slightest bit prepared, and even as I delve into my conscience to search for an excuse, I realise I only have myself to blame, for not practicing, for not putting in that effort.

There's been a newfound apathy on my part with regards to piano.

There's even been the slightest vestige of dread, which I cannot account for.

It seems as if everything is coming at me, and I'm not poised to handle them. Not all at once.

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SORRY I EMO KZ.

To be honest that was in a sense, an attempt of getting that flare for writing back. It was disconsolately... a very bad attempt.